truely believe dreams can come true regardless of the obstacles u may face. yes i may fail alot of times, but luck did shine on me.

the next goal in life, is to own a 4 wheel drive of my own. though i know it may take some time, but i will be patient and work hard towards it.
it has always been a dream of mine since young.
i desire freedom, and with my own vehicle, i will be able to achieve the kind of joy i want.

believe, and work towards it. satisfactions will come ur way.

something is quite wrong somewhere.
just cant figure it out

i am very unhappy.
and i lost the drive.

somebody saveeee me?

i'm glad you are always there for me tolerating my nonsense.
:)

The best times during a relationship is the early part of it.
They call it the honey mood period.
The guys usually gave all out just to get the girl they desire.
what a sad truth.
Why cant things be more consistence during the maintenance?

After all it's not about how u start but its the process goal we are talking about?

I think i am a loser in every single way.
why is my life so miserable. or am I the one making it so miserable
or maybe it is not even miserable but i make it seems so miserable.
I have a problem with my self and my own attitude.
quite fucked up actually.
I think I am really fucked up.
OH FUCK.

Last night I attended a short rock climbing course.
and now I am a certified belayer + climber!
It is interesting except I got a few bruises here and there. The sole of my shoes was unsuitable for rock climb, too thick therefore bad grip.
Oh, more up-coming interesting event such as nature run and WINDSURFING.
I am so cool with it.
:)

Loon brought me to ESCAPE theme park last Sunday. Kinda excited yet disappointed. All the damn good rides were under maintenance, so it was actually quite boring.
And I was kinda scared taking some of the rides which i won't when i was younger. OMG. I think I grew older.

EVERYTHING is so random.
I love to be random.
haha.

someone said to me 'you can initiate first mah'
and i replied ' i initiated alot already'
really find it too tiring to initiate things.
it always take 2 hands to clap.
once bitten twice shy.
i'm tired. really
i dont wanna get disappointed over these issues again. therefore i opt to stay passive.

some really no big deal issues are in fact big deal issues to me.

i talk non stop is when i am happy.

being nice will never get good retribution.

HAHA kana PS.
assuming things when u didnt even try to contact me.
why must I always do the initiative??????

i dunno, too many misunderstanding.
i get pretty sensative to such issues.

To a certain extend i think i really giving it up.
I gonna do all the hecks

but still, I'm angry.

Looking at the amount of outstanding work which was brought over from 2008. I really need to tell myself. 'Ok, time to be discipline and start working on the serious stuff, no more slacking and surfing in office anymore'

I think for the month of December I was really really snaking myself away indulging in the festive mood and stoning at the same time. nothing really productive.
SHRUGS MAN.
maybe this is me.
This is just so so me.

Oh my new year resolution is to get a new touch phone.
:D

happpened to browse through my previous blog a/c and found some really old entries which was written way back in 2003. Nothing really special except it reminded me of all my past relations and how i felt then.


Things has indeed changed over the years, and i no longer blog about my daily routine and i dont blog as often as before.
For the last 6 years, I have gone throught alot, many rollercoaster rides. Maybe it was the time of my life.

I think I have grown up.
but if I have a choice, I rather not.

lesbianism;
this was something familiar to me when i was in secondary school. It was kinda 'in' thing among our group of friends at that time. Cause everyday my friends and I would be sitting in the canteen gossiping about them.
I dunno why I didnt turn croaked then. Almost did though.
HAHA I think I'm too stright to be one lah, my thought is be les must be the hard core lesbian. those super style one which I think I CMI. Don't be neither here nor there kind.
anyway, I think I am not attractive enough to guys let alone girls!
and I finally came to understand why are lesbians so attractive already.
which I never really give a deep thought on this issue previously.
hahahah.

such a random post.I know
:)
wahahhahas
siao.

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I'm feeling bored with everything now. But still passionate with the things I love to do. I am tired of making new friends and apparently most of the friends I knew are just an acquaintance. very superficial relationships. Only few are the really nice ones to me. and I greatly appreciate their presence and the good times we had. I really really do cherish them to the extend that I have a lot of unexpressed expectations for them and get disappointed at times. That's why I begin to reserve to myself and express to the ones who are really willing to listen to my nonsenses. I am definitely very lame to the ones I am comfortable with. Not every friends you know share the same frequency and it is even harder to find such. That's why I do treasure them.

To my good friends, u know I love all of u. But, get very untactful and that stupid hormones of mine is always giving me moodswings. quite a bitch.
I also cannot take it myself.
APOLOGIES.

I think I have a lot to say on this very last day of 2008. HAHA
I blogged to entertain myself and not let my thoughts be forgotten tmr.
I'm quite an emo girl. Please pardon me.

31 DECEMBER 2008.

It yet another 31st December. I'm excited yet feeling paranoid.
Every year this day, i feel this sucky way.
I am damn weird.

It's half day at work today! YEA, perhaps it's the holiday that make me happy and I am going sentosa. Not for celebration but just merely have fun and suntanning to cover the ugly fugly tann I had after so many years of wearing singlets to rowing and some volleyball games with ah kok way.
Speaking of rowing, I feel so... gay.
eh really BTH myself.

I am so fare up with myself,
TMD

'when was the last time you took a bus without a destination in mind, purely enjoying the journey?' - chanced upon this phrase when i randomly visited other people's blog
It reminded me that i used to enjoy the random bus rides with my radio FM i had when i was younger; probably my seconary school days. But somehow, this kind of feeling faded away as i grew older.

Bye 2008.
Hello 2009.

i dont know what to blog.
too much to say yet too lazy to express it out

i want to go blading!!

it's useless to bother with too much things.
just let it be.
though i am kinda disappointed..
sometimes what you give is not what you get.
why am i asking so much?

No major next sem. this is so sh**
2 words to say: FU** UP
arg whatever.

TGIF!!

ALAMAKS, why they locked the access to facebook again?
Guess the user rate for facebook a/c is high in the office. Nobody
has the mood for work in the month of December. Envious of those people who are going on a holiday.I don't really know when is my turn to go to my dream destination

Upcoming event!
1. social night - (Ain't sure of the dress code yet)
2. xmas xchange

Love the month of December to the MAX.
It's my self-declared holiday month where I could get back the energy and be prepared
for another challenging year.

42.195KM CHECKED! I will never join another marathon again unless I am very well prepared for it.
Half marathon maybe.
I'm still happy to say, I've completed it.





should I go ahead? I have no idea.
This is because this feeling hasn't go away.
I still love rowing.



GOODBYE SEM 2
3 more to go.
JIA YOU!
MARKETING OR FINANCE?
still deciding...

why people don't cherish what they have and realize how lucky they are actually?
This society is already making life quite f***** up.