i pretended to be strong when im actually not.
and
i've lost my emotion support.
got nobody to turn to.

nobody knows what i'm going thru.
dont take me for granted pls.
i'm only human.

my office telephone is becoming like a 1800 HOTLINE!
i've been listening to TP's rantings 2 days consecutively.
They were literally complaining like there's no tomorrow with regards to their PT.

I have no choice but to say things like 'I understand your situation Sir'.
As if showing my deepest empathy to the miseries that they are going through.
To my surprise, this lady caller felt better after all the complaining and even thanked me for attention knowing that i cant offer any solution to her problems.
LOL
This is funny.

This reminded me of the 'Cathartic effect' which i learnt from last night lesson.
It simply mean, 'After a worker has complained, the cause of the complaint often appeared to have gone away even though no change in conditions had occurred'.

I have a bad feeling, there are more nightmares to come.

up till this stage in life
i still couldn't find my goal.

so stagnant

arg.
in fact i felt lost than ever before

i really should start pampering
even if nobody wanna love me
i can still find love myself
i wanna love myself moreeeeeeeeeeeee from now onwards

easily taken for granted?
for being kind?
haha. hais.
dunno why i feel this way.
seems like nobody really bother abt u when u really need them.

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

i'm glad that i'm beginning to find myself back;
the positive side of me.

socializing with different people has definitely enlighten me, widen my horizon, changes my perspectives, doing more explorations.

my emotions are numb.
i still love my friends though
:D

i discovered the health benefits of drinking green tea.
it gives a smoother complexion, weight loss, prevent cancers etc.
and i gonna try drinking it daily and see if it's true.

i'm kinda bored and i need some fun!
work can make me a sad girl sometimes.
being yelled by 'caller' was emotionally tough for me.
i know, everything is fucked up. i understand, from ur perspective
sometimes i hate the tnemnrevog too. like what that caller has said '$$ sucker'!
i agreeed totally. but wat to do? u wan to see fireworks rite? need $$ wad.

eh, i needa exercise so badly.
HELPS!

and i wanna apologise to ppl whom i've vented my anger on.
guess i haven been controlling it.
too emotional is bad

its a blessing in disguise whereby i shift my focus on other things and not be troubled by other things.

i can do a lot of things that i wanna do.
i can go out with anybody and not feel the guilt.
i have more time for my friends whom i had neglected
i can play play play and enjoy the time of my life

feeling so careless and free.

But i'm still darn busy with work and sch.

after the last few weeks of ultimate fun with my BFFs (LOL)
now this week, is fucking stress to me.
i cant settle my mood down for serious work.
Project dateline and test is so closed together
and i've got no more leave to take alrdy.

ok. I shall stop complaining

hmmmmm, i wan to go play!!
beach volleyball, wakeboarding, tennis, basketball, badminton, in-line skating
anybody jio meeeeee?
heehee.

oh, i've signed up for MARATHON RUN.
SEE YOU THERE if u have done so!
we can all die together.
lol.