31st DECEMBER* Say Goodbye to 2006.

another year is gonna end in another 14hrs.
okay. the FACT is time jus flew too fast.
cant keep up the pace. *yea-> i neo im slow cause im toa payoh kia (whatever haas)
dont exactly know if i love my life. it could be a more perfect year.
dread 2007. i dont wanna turn 21..
okay. take one step at a time and plan how to spend the last moment and make it me-morable?

2006 has indeed been a roller coaster for me..one of the lowest point in life, is not knowing wad's next in life.. trying so hard to blend with the society.. eventually, everyone will have to face the same situation as me..

Goals to achieve for 07:
a licence. and many more..

watched afew movies for the past few days.
night at the musem
confession of pain
death note 2.

i would say the most anticipated movie arent always the best movie ard.
watched death note 1, i would say the twist was pretty unexpected. when death note 2 came out, it wasnt dat bad but i got quite bored by the same thing though the story plot was good.

instead, i think i pretty enjoy confession of pain. the way it was shot was good.. though the ending was quite predictable.. maybe it was becos Takashi was the main actor. hahaa

night at the musem was quite hilarious. worth watching at the theatre.

anyways, its rare to see me writing so much in my blog. i'm in the office today.. sunday.. wells, working continuously since last tuesday, 6 days in a row. having to wake up at 6-7am is simply exhausting. besides, the event that was held here on last friday has already drained 3/4 of my energy away by working till so late. so depressed. i really dont wish to look so shagged everyday. i need something to take me high..
its only 2.5 hrs before i knock off. *smiles

too much of something is bad in mind?*

its raining again.
so thats how my christmas has ended; 45 mins ago.
spent my time with some of my friends.
significant day like this didnt impress me much.
but i wouldnt say it was as bad as last year
it could have been better.
days like these are becoming the same to me every year.
so it doesnt really matter.
the fact that i can take a break frm working makes me happier...
haahaa..

okays, my ex-colleague told me that he went bali alone during xmas..
wooO, maybe that will be one of the places i would like to go in future.
i wonder why peopple would like to travel alone... maybe its a different feeling, but i guess the feeling is kinda empty when u gotta slp in the hotel by urself... hmmms...

we had christmas exchanged last sat.
went in line skating in the afternoon, and thankfully it didnt rain when we were skating.
alot of ppl turned up at the chalet, it was abt 45 ppl squeezing in the cosy chalet.. everyone were busy catching with each other. to think abt it, its kinda nice to be able to attend to such parties again after graduated.. thanks cowan..

sighs, so its my turn to work on this weekend. i will try to put a smile across my face this weekend. hmmms..

WalaWalas
had a great time there, seriously i enjoyed the performance of their live band very much. had a good time listening to the singings. live music is definately much better then MP3 players. no wonder there is always crowds there on fri nights. okays, im going again i swear!!

while he is away to penang, ive constantly went to the shopping malls and spending $$ like nobody business. which explain why am i so broke. sigh, its the season to be happy. *shalalalalalala~*
but really happy shopping with qh.. hah! we are all damn broke lahs..

okays he's coming back tmr with all the tao sha pias! heehe. dunno if he knows i want the pandan flavour? if not, den too bad for me.. actually life without my db juniors are actually quite boring.. but luckily still got ppl to let me disturb lahs. like qihui. haaaha.. she's so sick.. and no voice now. and i kept talking to her non-stop, giving her bad advices as how to much her feel more sick. hahaa, pyscho rite. but thats how u get a MC and skip working wad.. haahaa

TAKE CARE ppl, make sure you dont fall sick nor u slip on the ground during this rainy season ya?

just when u tot that the whole world has forgotten u
somebody pop a msg on msn to tell u dat
"my msn is spoilt again.u not ard to troublshoot for me. sad."
glad that at least im useful for once.

this week has been tough for me. feeling so lethargic
i have to adapt to the changes with the new manager aroud.
i dont u/s why are all these happening
not like its gonna make the situation better or wad.
maybe even worse =/
fucked up week i tell u.
treated like a gardener, stucked in the middle between colleagues, managers, contractors and even the tenants. wtf wtf wtf! asking me to do shit jobs for them.
i dunno how long i can hang on, but i'll try to hang on as long as possible..
when a person is down with luck, no way will things be smooth for her.
life sucks.

but i still have a couple of kind treatment from my friends and even the tenants ard, like i get deserts from them everyday, and even pastries like blueberry cheesecakes and tarts. =)~
at least my day didnt end feeling =(
it was a =
hurhurhur..

christmas is coming in another 3 weeks time, cant imagine there will be 4 p.holidays.. good for those who can enjoy the luxury of those 4 days. sad for those who has to work on the days.. mourn for them!
mourn for me as well.. cos im one of those poor fellows out there who cant enjoy the lovely christmas. *ha-le-loo-ya*

bad management system = lousy working environment.

i wanna
i wanna
i wanna
i wanna
go school again!

*living in a denial

race is only nxt week.
wow, getting quite excited.
i always like to go boat quay for race.
got the ambience.. v.crowded.
also dat was the place where i had my 1st and my last official race,
so it was an unforgettable experience..
remb how excited we felt during our 1st race?
cant even slp properly the nite before.
the seniors would give us a time curfew.
making us quit using MSN/MRIC before 12am and dat they will go online for 'spot checking'
if kana spotted. nxt day get scolding..

our tradition was always to meet at raffles place for photo-taking session and temple prayers
and that explain why we have so many pics of us.
haahahaa.. i always love to have breakfast at china sq. or wadever u call it. and have 'Yakun' for breakfast lah. hahaa..
some of them always have many different weird hairdos. and colours.
it was a trend!!!!!
oh, unforgettable days..
after race, we will go to some places for our race dinner to cele our hardwork for the last few months.
training was really not easy; especially when we had trained hard..
those are the day i will not forget.. the hardwork we put, the sweat and the tears.
my 3 yrs was indeed well spent.
=)

its 7pm now..
waiting for the public bus to come
it comes in every 30 mins. so when i missed one.i gotta wait for another 30mins
wells, my day haven been v.good.
starting to get alittle stressed up.. im a person who always make careless mistake.
well, a leopard nv chgn its spot. sometimes i'll missed out tiny details.
people always love to pick on minor mistakes isant it?
tmd.
well, since im new.. they are still alrite with it..
i hate figures and statistics lahs.. so many data entry to do.

FRIDAY~

its friday again.
but im not excited at all..
going for workout later AMORE
kickboxing?
i haven watch out my diet.
still indulging in junk food.
sigh.. so the $$ has gone into the drain lahs
yawns..
who wanna date me out?
i missss the NUS banana cheese prata
nobody wanna bring me there lahs.
zzzz

Marina South Pier

Water is so much cleaner den what we see at ECP or Sentosa
at least it is partially clear.
haha..















take a look at the new clifford pier..















i actually snatch a shot of camp high achiever's ppl
over at this pier. hahaa..
saw dear eunice, she's one of the instructor there.
She's carrying that super heavy box going to st.johns island for camp!

















Here is my desk over at MSP.
the greenery relaxes me whenever i got bore with work
love the greens!
I know my desk is alittle messy. hahaa. =x

sea rowed on last sat & sun..
quite satisfied with the trg.
:D
though i did pant like hell dat day.
lunch at subway..
afterwhich we procceed to essential brews
we toasted for our dear ziling!
congrass to her!
had a gd chilling out session..
love it!
nice place, good company.

sleepy in my office..
am all alone right now..
back on work on a saturday morning,
i know its not unusual, but to me it is!
dragged my feet to work today..
marina bay bus stop, saw my poly fren; cant imagine i would met some familiar face at the super duper isolated place.
shall go now.
update nxt time.
off for sea rowing.
hurhur.

coming to an end of my 2 weeks break
gotta adapt another new environment
recieved a call frm the HR
reporting to work at marina south pier directly on mon
woohoo..
luckily its at 9pm.
phews*

2 weeks has been well spent i guess
jus back frm genting
loveeee the fog.
rides was good. esp the SPACE SHOT.
so exciting cans?
my heart almost droppped and my legs felt weak aft dat.
there was nth much to shop at genting.
went KL on the 2nd day.
saw the 2 tall towers, went into the shopping mall..
big. i tell u.
lotsa boutiques, suitable for shoppaholic!
wells, im not really one.. so i din bought anything there
except dat the food was cheaper den sg.
we sneaked into the casino as well..
hurhur.

went back to sch for trg.
my physicque has indeed slacken ALOT
im constraint by alot of thing like push ups.
i think i was breath-less durin the run
weights aint so gd.
pull ups.. boo boo.
wells i admit. im NUA already.
=x

gotta agree that stress arises as age arises..
expectations and responsibilities are something which cant be avoid
its bad to vend the stress onto innocence; like they deserve this.
nobody is perfect ; alittle tolerance could make a difference...
nobody is obliged to please another..
nobody has the same perspectives as one another
so dont expect things to be the way you want...

anyways...
appointment with JoneSlang Lasalle tmr
hopefully, it will be a sucessful one..
jobseeking lately, im leaving starHub for good..
though there's a tinge of 'cant-bare-to-leave' mood with me.
the colleagues are easy to get along with, comfy with the location and the environment
but too bad i need something different from this.. dont wanna stagnant here..
oh wells, its jus another 3 more weeks...

Happy teachers' day.
had not seen my teachers for years wondering how are they doing now..

politics; critics; rules
so real..
the human survivor skill is very essential
once targeted, thats it!
life is cruel after all..

back to business...
tmr is the dnd. and ive got no dresss to wear
troublesomee.. gotta cr8k my brain..
im jus lazy... perhaps perhhaps perhaps.....
im left alone in e office ( not exactly alone though)
ppl went to learn dreamweaver...
oh ya, my sec sch fren is working in the same company as me.
world is so small.. but its nice seeing her ard.. though we haven went for lunch together.
hahaa.. im leaving here in a month's time.
time to move on...

one thing i hate about working is that it makes me fat.
i just cant stand the 'nua' feeling.. its take alot if discipline to go on excercising
and to control diet.
that explains why im so bloated these days.....harharhar

15 hrs of work yesterday...
wow, im a superwoman.. hahaa
after work, i went back to ciba to help joelle n ash with her stuff..
preparing invitation card, slotting the invitation card into the envalope
total of 5000 pieces..
we completed it in 4-5 hrs time..

this sunday is the new balance run..
though im not participating this year, but i hope i can still go down.
hope my leg wun be an obstruction.....
get well soon to my leg!!!
hahaaaa...

My feet feels slightly better today..
at least i dont walk like a crippled!
wOooo..
zouk tonight?
im tempted..
-laughs-

i just hate the way i walk now, the pain is obstructing me from walking like a normal human being...
damn.. just worry that it might turn into a long-term injury. and if it do.. you can just kill me..
no more jogging, no more skating..
just sit there and see me grow fat, fatter and fatterrrrrr......
my contract is ending in a mth plus time.
gotta start searching for jobs.
hate going for interviews..
i've got a phobia man.
maybe im jus shy...
*pukes*

attended alot of birthday celebrations last week..
no wonder im so broke..
but as long as they are happy..
i'm happy..
=)

Take a long walk down your memory lane and say goodbye to some outdated ideas.
In Detail

Your memories can be wonderful, heartwarming notions that tie you to the people you love, and they maintain a valuable tie to a past that helped create the person you are today. But memories, when held on to too literally or wistfully, can also be paralyzing forces in your life. Take a long mental walk down memory lane and pinpoint some remembrances you need to forget. Don't let the rosy haze of nostalgia lead you to believe something that isn't true.

Goodbye to my good old memories...

thanks to my colleague!
my day was brighten up my her with this flower!
wee...
so happy!

my lunch was great.
korean food at meridien's food court.
plus a yami yogurt for desert.

having lunch break now.
a cup of yummy tea.
sinned again.
-shake head-

Sentosa outing on last saturday.
Everything was organised by Cowan..
Not many people went. Erm i mean.. the ladies
but nvm.. we still have our fun there lah.
Was raining at 1st. However it stopped after awhile and we went on to start the game.
The guys played 'Dog & Egg' game. Instead of putting any other object, cowan changed to putting an egg. whoever found the egg which was buried under the sand 1st, they get to throw at the other party..
After dat we took a rest and went on volleyball game..Splitted into 3 grps.
Ben, Mic, Yibei, Simon, Sheena and I were in 1 grp. While the rest were spilted into another 2 grps..

How relaxing it was.
love it!

next coming outdoor session: ROLLER BLADING

dont understand why are there so many misunderstandings around
is it due to the lack of communication or is it just different perspectives.
i get very tire of all these problems
kept coming and coming...
no solutions to these.

i do not look very forward to tmr.

before i realised, my contract at starhub is gonna end in 2 months time
they wan me to extend. preferably till the nxt AAA. which is nxt yr
but im not sure if i would want to..
not that i dislike working there..in fact im alrdy quite comfortable there
but, afterall its only a temp position.
where will this get me to?
no pay rise. no staff benefits.
sadded.

great healthy lunch.
teo chew porridge.
i never have a particular liking for porridge
though i find it very healthy to have

My colleagues are nice enough to prepare it.
they have very good welfare (in terms of eating, and that's why I look so 'cute')
always bringing us out for lunch.
now
that's one thing i like about working in starhub.
lol.

i miss KAT, the hokkien lian. lol
haiya.. now dat im alone in the office..
im usually not v.noisy and she's the noisy one ard.
very cranky at times, but still enjoy her presence.
sigh* at least i feel more connection with her..
=(

alot of work to do right now!

if only the lucky prize winner was me.
2 tickets to maldives plus additional $3500 cash.
starhub is too rich man
they have a total of 700+ lucky draw prizes for the D&D
all of them are bloody attractive
so many handphones and shopping vouchers to be won.
its phones like Dopod, sony ericson, N80
taka shopping vouchers $500 etc..

wah lao.
if only i am a perm staff here.........

its monday again.
so blue.

unexpected things do happen
and it gave me a shock.
my heart sank for awhile.
its okay, past is past
the time ahead is within my control.

i m so RESTLESS today.
cofffeeeeeee. i need.

i must say dat i miss school again!
hais.. i miss the days when i bumm ard in the lib cafe..
i dont mind going back to the smelly old LT 58, 61 again
i dont mind facing that weird weirdy Tan Choi Heng.
sometimes, he's cute.
somtimes, he's irritating..
i miss the cheap canteen food
i miss using bus concession..
now i have to worry abt taking too many buses in a day.
damn expenisvie cans..
-miss the good old days-

bring me to holiday please!
0.0

found myself so obesssssssed with CARS!..
cant keep my eyes off
i ask for not more..
a black nissanMARCH will make me smile..
wahahaha..
how many months and years do u think i can earn enough to afford a car?
hopefully i will strike some 4Ds or TOTOs..

if you love something very much, knowing you will take good care of it.
den why do ppl still take things for granted to the ones they love?
human feelings are too complicated to understand?
or do I understand them with a simple mind?
why do u get into a r/s knowing that love dont last forever?
and all you know is that you will only end up feeling sad and miserable.
then how are we gonna keep the faith of a r/s going strong?
it alwaes upset me to see couples seperating.. i can understand the pain in which they will suffer.
so sad. so sad
tskk..
this world is to chime for me..

It's Thursday today!
one more day to go.. and its FRIDAY
weeeee....

oh june race on this coming weekend.
laughs*
its my 3rd time already..
feel so old! damnit..
guess wilson gonna put me as pacer again..
...........

*when im rowing infront, i never like it.
but when im not.. i realised i miss dat seat.
wahahahs..

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back. In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so. A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

maldive..
B-E-A-U-tiful...
wish i could step onto this island..

sometimes i just feel like killing myself.
lousy stupid me..
=/

someone once told me, some people choose to further their studies.
is becos they wanna escape the working life..

am i becoming that some people?

i wanna escape...
but to where?

sick n tire..

so what's up for me today?
you know i'm suppose to do my work now.
yet im here to type rubbish.
haaha
so let's have a rubbish entry today.

qns: how do u enlarge a picture on ur desktop?
ans: just move ur head nearer to ur PC.
hurhur..
that's my colleague's nonsense lah.
and made me felt cold for a moment.

-.-

birkenstock!!!
should i? should i not?
lol..

http://www.footshopping.com/main.cfm?wgID=907&MI=31&MID=22339

4 mins to knock offfffffff..
weeee
wads interesting in starhub is... u get to do alot of 'sai kang'
heehee.
wells, i dun deny i've learnt quite abit by doing these shit jobs.
such as, binding, photocopying, taking orders for breakfast and tea break, sending e-mails, prepare events and the list goes on...
oh what's exciting abt it is dat my execs will bring me to places to try new food.
my managers will tell me where are the goo dfood to buy cos he is the expert!

bleahs.
alright. im offf for work.
having SUBWAY for dinner today!
heee

Life is getting too real these days..so many wants yet limited resources.

having my lunch break now, but im not eating anything..
had my favourite kinder bueno. (used to)

let me see wads interesting to update..
durian puff at goodwood hotel was.. hmmm okay. wad impresses me better was the ice-cream
it was so much better den swensen's.. the five of us was indulging in it lah.
its quite costy though. 20bucks?
its okay to enjoy such luxury once a while i assume.
heee
my saturday without rowing seems weird.
the sun was too good to be missed lah. too bad we werent at SDBA
wad a wasted afternooon
tsk tsk..

human appreciate things only when it is gone.
how true..

oh Graduation day is comingggg... cant wait to take leave and go back to school. haa
how i misss school.

another event in which i'm looking forward to is june race.
but the feeling is different this time, not as excited as before.
maybe it will be held at bedok reserviour and not the usual marine promeade.
good luck to my juniors!
workkkkkkk harddddddd
dun think too much. just whacked

life seems to be getting alittle stagnant here.
or maybe working in the office isant my cup of tea.
starting to get alittle bored there.
my monday dont look quite well.
1st things 1st when i go to work, i made alot of mistakes in my work
feel so bad abt it.

just cant wait for the 6 mths to end.
27th sept to arrive earlier.
i wish i could mugged for test now.
i miss that kind of adrendline, when i see my test paper.

i get alittle confused of wad i want to do nxt.
i see a problem with myself. rather alot of problems.
bad working attitude..etc

im starting to doubt my ability...

monday blues.
booboo.
work again, so busy.. so many things to do
argg.. -pull hair-
yawns. all im thinking of is to sleep.

slight muscle ache
i think i like this feeling
i like the feeling of being muscular den having fats wobbling ard.
haahaa

*how i wish i can slack in the library cafe with a cup of bubble tea and with my PPPCC kahki now.*

in my office.
too bore.

before going zouk.
=)

stress.
so busy in office.
my dear colleague is away to Ayer Rajar.
left me alone in the office

its p.holiday eve..
weee!
cant wait to knock off.
so life-less

zouk last nite.
surprise surprise!
i went home early, like 12.30am.. haa
i was bored and tire..
dun really enjoy so much anymore
sigh, are those signs of aging?
=x
-thinks too much-

you will be fine my dear friend.
i'll shower my blessings to ya..

my manager surprised me by asking me to go for a customer service training today. Its a 2 days course. of course at 1st i tot 'yay no need to work for these 2 days!' but i was wrgn. It is worse than wokring..cause its boring.

went to the sch after work today. gymed out, jogged. stamina decreased alot. haiya.. but looks like my workout has gone wasted.

haahaa..

take a look at the food we had after dat...

 

i cant figure out what's wrong.
maybe its the turning point.
find it quite hard to accept changes
everything jus seem to be diff.
not easy to adapt.
sigh.

its seems like going on a down time.
what can i do to keep this faith going?
im trying hard..
not dat its diff, but efforts is needed.
nothing is easy..

i guess i shuldnt worry so much.

everything need to have an ending.
im here to shout it loud.
GOODBYE to u.
=)

im super bad temper lately, minor things jus pissss me off.. luckily i had a good nap in the afternoon. i had a very very strange dream. hmmm...

going for aerobic workouts later! AMOREEEEEEE here i comeeeee
weeeeeeeee.....
spent $129 for this thing..
gonna sweat till i drop i tell u.
asssss......

i really....
really wanna go for a holiday..
maybe to australia?
or thailand.....
i want......

fucking lost with what i wanna do..
i have no plans, no dreams, no goals in life.
im angry with myself for being so lousy..
i have no actions but just words...
=(

been super duper busy with final yr project..
well at least im glad we're heading the right track.
=D
new yr is coming
hmm..
and im happyyy..
haahaa!
wells at least things are getting slightly better now..
jus gonna hope that everything will go back like how it begun.
looking forward!

maybe this is what they call 'karma'
shrugs.

'look wad u have done, u made a fool of everyone.'

i appreciate people who have been very nice and willing to lent their listening ears for me.. thanks.

im very fortunate to have friends like u guys..
=)

kangwei says ive grown more mature as compared to the 1st time he saw me 2 yrs ago. -laughs-

i always look to the back.
cos i hate to look ahead.
that's why sometimes i fall over and over again..
learning how to stand again..

its back to square one
it will be hard
but jus gotta try..

thanks for letting the bird out of the cage
it needa see the outside world.
let it fall
and be independent.
maybe someday it will fly back to u.
and if it doest come back to u
dun cry
cos its always sunshine after the rain

let me see.. there isant much of an interesting stuff to blog down.. so i shall just blog down my boring day.. cos im simplily too free.
highlight of the day:
1) finally we're doing some research in the library today and that our project is getting somewhere. haahaa.. nxt week is the submission already..
2) ive finally know what to wear for AGM and dat i need not spend a penny on it. wahahahas.
3) today is mambo night and im not going! weeee!!!!
4) ive finally went to the bank to get my whatsoever done
5) ate my mom's dinner for the 1st time this year
6) im finally going to get my telephone survey done by tonight
7) im home so early for the 1st time this year -laughs-

quote of the day:
'whatever will be, will be'

-shrugs- 

my perfect sunday.. indeed its a sunny SUNday!
should have make plans to go sentosa for a good tann.
nvm den.
arg, shit things happened. suppose to spend my sunday working.
however, the documents are saved on the floppy disk but ive got no floppy drive on my com
how stupid..

anyways, went down to civic plaza ytd to watch the hip hop competition..
the team who won 1st was cool.
pretty ladies..
haa..

call me crazy. haa.. i actually went to apply for naval officer.
its jus for fun though, but if they were to accept me.. maybe i will consider it as a career.
besides it has good benefits
and opportunities of going overseas study is there too..
so.. why not?
=)

maybe..
im too soft hearted..
=/

the dateline for final year project is drawing nearer.
less den a mth. and we haven really got anything done.
time to panic..

its has been raining for the past few days.
if only it is snowing...
how beautiful it would be.
haa..
somebody bring me to korea pls..

its 2006.. another phrase of life is gonna hit me..
wonder what is it gonna be like after dat..
its really depressing to know that i am going to pass the teen age..
sigh.

sometimes i wish im a bettter person.
 

muahahahahsss

picture of the day! ops. =x

ook at my body! nice? heee"

"AM I SEXY enough?" hurhurhur..